I am twenty-two.  woot.  I had a really nice birthday.  I only had rehearsal for about an hour (which has been normal for me lately) so i spent the rest of the day making cupcakes for everyone and going to see the Annie Leibovitz exhibit at the National Portrait Gallery (so amazing).  Then I went out to dinner with all my best friends here, including the two guys I met at church.  So all my BADA friends finally got to meet the "church boys."  It was a lot of fun.  I love birthdays, especially when they are my own =)

Okay, but now I am going to bitch for a little bit, because on Saturday I got the most bittersweet belated birthday present ever.  So I was playing football with the cast of King Lear (random, I know), including their director.  Now, this is the play I wanted to be in from the beginning.  I love the women roles in it.  I even did a Goneril monologue for my audition and thought it went really well.  But I got cast in Bernarda Alba.  And I got a good part in the show, but because the cast is so big, I am literally only this character for one of three acts.  I tried to tell myself that this is an acting conservatory, and everyone is really talented, and the competition is much higher than at home, and only 5 of the 19 girls in the program got cast in either of the two Shakespeares.  So the odds were not in my favor.  But then putting up with this has been more difficult than I thought because nearly all of my best friends in the program are in Lear, and the girls in Bernarda Alba are nice but I'm not really close with any of them.  So while I was terribly happy being with group S for the first half of this semester, the second half with Bernarda Alba has been less than stellar.  So anyway, back to football.  When we were done, the Lear director basically pulls me aside to ask how Bernarda Alba is going and I said "oh, fine".  And then she said to me, "you know, you had a wonderful audition.  I would have put you in my cast, but Jake (the Bernarda Alba director) really fought for you.  Do you have a good role?" That made me feel really happy to know that I did actually do a good job and I wasn't just deluding myself, and the fact that directors were fighting over me is a huge compliment but I WAS SO CLOSE TO BEING IN THE SHOW OF MY DREAMS!  I love Shakespeare and would love more than anything to be a Shakespearean actors.  I am glad that Jake really wanted me, but I did a Goneril monologue.  I made it clear which show I prefered.  And then he got me but gave me 1/3 of a decent part?  I don't understand.  Now I just can't wait for this show to be over with.  I can't believe I was so close... I'm sorry, I know many of you have far bigger problems to deal with than me being like "boo-hoo, too many directors want to cast me and that is just not fair" but you are my best friends and I have no one else I can let out my prima dona bitchy side to.  Thanks for listening.