well, i had a date last night with a junior in gamelan (balinese percussion ensemble) named elliott.  the plan was to watch christmas claymation and i was really excited about it although sometimes wishing this date wasn't a possibility and that i was still with kevin or feeling guilty for wanting to go on this date and not wanting it to go anywhere, the my reasons were selfish and had a lot more to do with kevin than elliott.  for the record i really do like elliott, but i always wanted to prove to myself that i could date someone else before kevin came back and then maybe next semester would be easier and i wouldn't care about the things kevin has to say.  elliott didn't come.  i haven't heard from him.  i have no idea why.